Tai Chi

Sep. 19th, 2011 10:16 pm
[personal profile] calvinl
For now it seems like I'm waiting for some form of revelation, to get me to live a physically healthier life. More than likely it would need to be a dramatic event, like my doctor looking me straight in the eye and telling me I need to start eating healthier and exercising. This never happens though. When I did blood work for my physical, he stated everything checked out normally, so I don't have any health risks, for now. Which is odd because I eat a lot of fast food and I don't get a whole lot of exercise.

It reminds me of all those years I spent wasted feeling sorry for myself, depressed, and wondering why the world sucked so much. I had to try to kill myself and get committed in the mental ward of a hospital in order for me to truly appreciate my life. As sad as it may sound, I don't think I would have ever gotten out of my funk if I didn't do that. Trying to commit suicide is probably the best thing I could have done for myself. Sure I still have bad days, as most people do. But now everything seems easy in retrospect, and even the difficult things can be accomplished if given enough time.

So mentally and psychologically I'm as healthy as I've ever been, but physically I'm in the worst shape of my life. I always think of excuses, like my shoulder hurts or it's too late to go the gym, but I really should stop. It's hard sometimes because I work a lot and then I have classes on top of that. But I was reading Bruce Lee's wikipedia and that guy is a beast. He worked out so many hours a day, but it surprises me to find out that he passed away at the age of 32.

I was tinkering with the idea of learning tai chi, just as something to calm me down and help me physically. Not a lot of people know this, but I'm a black belt in Tae Kwon Do. But since I'm so inflexible and slow now, I might as well be a white belt.

Anyway, for this first time in years, I received a 100% on my exam. It was long overdue, since I don't remember when the last time I received 100%. In college I used to be satisfied with a C, and happy with a B. Now I demand getting A's in every class I take. Reminds me of my elementary school years before academia sucked the energy out of me. Knowing what I know now, I wish I didn't go to college right after high school.
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